I am so confused. Everything is getting mixed-up crazy-like. Still havent talked to R.J. but I dont really care anymore, Ive got past that point. He can suck a fattie penis for all I care. No biggie. But I still say hes not small. It pisses me off when people take direct hits towards someones man/womanhood. I saw R.C. yesterday. He keeps being so sweet to me and doing all this nice stuff... Its weird. And he keeps talking about how we might get together in the future, when people will maybee actually accept us. I mean, theyre our lives. Why do other people care who were with as long as its not hurting us and were happy? I seriously dont understand. I really care for him, he is probably the best guy friend I have. And at the same time, we are so much more than friends. But we were hanging out last night, doing what we usually do (not to gross u out, but that would be eachother), and talking. I have so many conflicting thoughts running through my head rite now... I wish I could be with R.C. now and in the future. He is such a good person. He was saying all this stuff, even before we were Kites... ok, i think im done for now.

( current mood: yummy )