well its the same old same old. but I dont know what to do about my man. what else is new. oh well

Mon Aug 26, 02 at 00:04 » confused and bruised

I cant get ahold of RJ to tell him.. I dunno. Its been a month now. No one thought that we could even last this long but I guess we proved them wrong but Im worried about him. Hes starting to do all the stuff he used to do that got him landed in jail. I dont know what to do. I was wresteling with RJs homie and not I have bruises all over my body. I really want to do whats best for RJ and I want to help him get strait, be legit, but I cant if he dont want to, ya know. I really care for him, weve been friends forever. I dont want to lose him.

( current mood: concerned )

Mon Aug 26, 02 atMon Aug 26, 02 at 12:36 » alls not well in the superuniverse?

I had a very interesting dream last night. RJ and I had a baby. It was a little boy and he was so adorable. I dont know what this means because I could be pregnant... I kinda do want a baby. No, I really want a baby. But a little me and RJ running around? I think it would be considered a crime against humanity. But I dunno. I love RJ. I really do. But hes doing those bad things again. I dont care about everything else, I just wish he wouldnt do drugs. Oh wow Im just blabbering. I have to figure all this out. I dont know what to do.

( current mood: frustrated )

People are going around trying to break me and RJ up. Its really pissing me off. They dont want us to be together, its like they dont want to see me or him happy. It makes me so mad. I just want to slap all of them. I dont know what to do to make them stop talking sh*t. Somebody Help!

( current mood: annoyed )

Mon Aug 26, 02 at 21:18 » Player???

I dont know. I wish I could get some advice on this relationship of mine... but people just dont seem to care. Oh well such is life.

( current mood: abandoned )

Tue Aug 27, 02 at 12:31 » not so super?

I hate mornings. Whoever invented them is stupid and need to die. Just kidding. I wish people would actually read this and help me out. Worthless. I dont know. Whatevers cleaver.

( current mood: tired

Tue Aug 27, 02 at 23:36 » Not like anyone cares....

Well I guess noone really cares, but I already knew THAT. Everyone is looking for my man, I guess they want to kill him or something, but like I said, what else is new? I am getting so tired of this city. I swear to god I am going to fu*king move to puerto rico or something. Or maybe some place that hates women so I can show them what were made of. I dont know. Somebody help.

( current mood: frustrated )

Wed Aug 28, 02 at 17:47 » Dying!

Oh my god it is so fuc*ing hot out. I swear to god its hotter than 85. Dying. I think Im going to hook up the sprinkler and me n baby go play in it. That sounds good to me... but I dont want to put on a baithing suit, Im just starting to get fat. Urgh. Guys suck. Speaking of which, I cant get ahold of RJ. God hes being a prick. But hes my prick. So ha. I love him I just hate when he does bad things . Im sure weve been doing an even amount of that in the past week. I thought he wanted to be part of this. I dont know. Hes probably coked out like usual. thank god he just started using again, so the baby doesnt have as much risk of being fucked up in the head. I told him he wont get any rights if he doesnt stop using. So hopefully he stops. I dunno anymore. Its so hard to do this. I feel so alone. I am so fucking scared. What if something happens? Well, I just keep running on and on... I need to talk to him. I just want to know if hes ok. Is that too much to ask? You wouldnt think so. But obviously it is. Asshole. I love him anyways though. I hate this thing called love. It sucks. All its done is fuck me over. At least I get one good thing out of it though, and Itll last alot longer. my angel. Ok Im done now

( current mood: alone )

Sat Aug 31, 02 at 13:20 » ::Angel::

oh wow. I had the weirdest dream. I dunno. But it was about my "boyfriend" if I can even call him that... I dunno. Hes still sitting up in a room somewhere cracked/coked out or whatever the hell hes doing. Not like I care anymore. I mean, I do, its just gotten so bad. I dunno.

( current mood: agitated )