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to my ex
What did you want from me
if you didnt want my love
thought you were my gift from God
so sure you were sent from above
Turns out
without a doubt
you were just about to cause me pain,
to fill my sunnie skys with rain
My love was so strong it cut my heart
Your hate is so strong I'm falling apart
I cried so hard my tears never dried
I hoped so hard stars fell from the sky
My love for you wasnt cut and never died
Even when I found out how much you lied
I cant take anymore lies
Lost all faith in guys
Even though I want you back
I know you dont want me
Because you said I was the source
Of all your misery
I try harder to find
All the time with you I had left behind
I try to find, so deep in my mind
The love yours you said was for me, was mine
I search far and wide
For my strangled pride
I know everything I am looking for
Is right within my grasp
But I also know I cant quite grasp it
Because I Might love you even more
You have no Idea how much I still care
Regardless the fact that you'll never be there
You said you would always be with me
Over the rest of eternity
I've heard its better to love and lose
Than never love at all
But I would die happy
If I had never felt this way before
Because the short time I had to love you
Is overwhealmed by this pain I have
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All of these are by me How am I to know
If you really love me so
You say you do all the time
So why am I crying?
You cheated on me
How was I to see
That you & me could never be
The Loves not there
You dont really care
Please go away
No I'm not ok
Because you lied to me today
For every 'I love you' I know is untrue
I want to hurt and lie to you
Try as I might I cannot fight
My love for you will never die
But still I must say goodbye. |
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I call for death
so death eludes me
I pray for life
So now I die
I ask from relief from all the pain
And the lightning strikes so now I cry
I cry to relieve all the pain inside me
And so my tears run dry
The pain inside me grows like flowers
And the pieces inside me slowly die
Though death should feel
Nothing do I feel
I no longer know if I cry
My tears I cannot feel
because
you cannot cry if your not really real
I cannot feel happiness,
but I can feel pain
I cannot feel sunshine,
only the rain
I cannot feel love,
but hate is plain
And so my glass tears fall with the nonexhistant rain
The rain is falling forever in my world
And in the flood I am swept away
My night is forever, never can I excape
So now I warn, be happy with day
For once the day is gone,
You'll never again see the sun
The light will die
Your tears will dry
Your deepest fears and deepest pain
Will flood you to feel like its rain
Although I try to live again,
I cannot be reborn
For on my side I have to lie
stabbed with the deepest thorn
I cannot move for fear of death more plain
And so I lie on my side,
Drowning in the rain.
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